December 2009
its way too cold
to be alive right now.
i keep getting massive chills
and these weird things in my chest. like, fluttery feelings but nothing is causing it.
they make me nervous
idk
maybe i’m broken.
max bemis astounds me.
One day I really want to open a pet shelter.
I don’t care if it’s when I retire or when I’m young.
But I love animals. I’d love to do it.
It’d make me feel like I have a purpose maybe?
November 2009
I wish I could dissappear.
Because I’m so done with everyone around me.
I’m sick of being used.
I’m sick of your one word responses.
I’m sick of not mattering to anyone ever.
I’m done.
I just want to be lazor beamed off this planet and somewhere new for a change.
I wish I was at home so I could pop a million tylenol pm and not wake up anymore. I just don’t want to live, basically.
...
people enrage me
did you know that there are people in the world?
annoyed with all the other people in the world?
and out of all these people in the world
I AM THE ANGRIEST ONE.
"I knoww. It's why I like.. Respect you.. Or...
10 things you want for Christmas:
New Camera.
Bamboozle Tickets.
Money.
Sleep<3.
Clothess.
Step Brothers on dvd.
To find out what college I got accepted into lolol. 8. Gabe Saporta ;] 9. A good party. 10. Amazing sleepovers in 2010. Like, I mean, curled up all night watching degrassi with marshmallow fluff amazing.
9 musicians/bands you love:
Say Anything
Cobra Starship
Fall Out...
Funny Story.
So I’m sitting here on my laptop not being able to sleep and whatnot.
Anddd my dad being the dick he is just let Clementine into my room. At 2:40am. Go figure, right?
Well Clementine begins climbing around my room, tryin to jump up on the box with all my wires and blankets on top.
I began mentally rooting for my cat, hoping he’d climb up and feel… Accomplished.
However I...
so i have
all these marks from my clandestine necklace pushing against my skin. it kind of sucks. i hate being achey and stuff. whatever. i get to relax tomorroww.
i wish i had friends. i really dont want to be alone tonight..
Fangs upp
So i’m really excited to see cobra tonight. Say anything was amazing nov 4th. I hve no Internet again so I’m typin this on my ipizzle. Lolol.
And in this very second I’ll never mention the dreams I keep from you<3
You enrage me.
I will never come to understand you.
You always act all innocent when you KNOW you did something wrong.
YOU KNOW.
But yet you try to act as if nothing had happened.
Why do you do such stupid things to yourself? (I can’t judge.. but. I’m not an important person)
I know your upset, but I guess it MUST be bad if you can’t talk to your best friend about it.
Fuck you. Fuck...
So sick so sick of being tired
And oh so tired of being sick.
omg
so liek. im wit muh biff kayleb. and liek hez liek UHMAZIN. I wishhh I culd liek chillz wit him erryday. <33333.
this excited me. i need to remember this
mliaverage:
Today, I became extremely excited when I learned that Shakespeare came up with ‘ya mama’ jokes by saying “Villain, I have done thy mother,” in one of his plays. You go Shakespeare you old dog you. MLIA
Tell me what you think of This gun.
Haven’t updated in a while. I’m so tired right now. I have left purple marks under my eyes. College applictions are stressing me out so muchh. :/
When does the fun part of senior year start?
I’m gonna collapse now. Later gator.
